Monthly Archive for January, 2010

No Dual Citizenship

pasport1Last week Greg Boyd spoke at Park View Men­non­ite Church in Har­rison­burg, about his book The Myth of a Chris­t­ian Nation. His main idea was that there is the king­dom of the world, and the king­dom of God and that they are dif­fer­ent. You can tell because the king­dom of God on earth looks like Jesus. So if you ever want to know if some­thing world king­dom or God king­dom, just check whether it looks like Jesus or not.

The Anabap­tist tra­di­tion has cen­tred on this fairly closely, his­tor­i­cally. Boyd urged the Men­non­ites in the audi­ence to keep this voice strong, while at the same time chal­leng­ing to be flex­i­ble and open on every­thing else that is not about God’s king­dom. A chal­lenge, to say the least.

He empha­sized how God’s king­dom is inclu­sive, rad­i­cally inclu­sive, so much that the Matthews (tax col­lec­tors) and Simons (zealots who “some­times assas­si­nated tax col­lec­tors”) could fol­low Jesus together in the same group of dis­ci­ples, dia­logu­ing, inter­act­ing, and focus­ing on liv­ing the God’s king­dom –kind of life.

As fol­low­ers of Jesus, we can have dif­fer­ent opin­ions and view­points on pol­i­tics and the way the world should go, but ulti­mately we are gath­ered together as one in the king­dom of God, which takes pri­or­ity over all other issues.

So this is my cit­i­zen­ship. I need to remem­ber this and not be con­fused while liv­ing in a ‘for­eign’ king­dom of this world. I was reminded that while I can dia­logue and chal­lenge and engage the world king­dom, my iden­tity and pri­mary alle­giance lies in God’s king­dom. If I choose to fol­low Jesus, I give up my cit­i­zen­ship to the world. There is no dual cit­i­zen­ship here.

34 litres later

I was walk­ing across the park­ing lot, its slush-covered sur­face mak­ing the cart bounce.

I’ll grab that one before you put it back,” a man called out to me.

Sorry,” I responded, “I’ve got one of the tokens.”

No prob­lem,” he chuck­led, fol­low­ing me to the carts. I pushed it in, then clicked the holder out, the token falling to the ground in the process. “Is it a good cart?”

Didn’t give me any trou­bles; I didn’t run into any­thing,” I laughed. He laughed out loud, and we said good­bye in the same tone of voice you speak in when you say good­bye to a life­long friend.

Three min­utes later, I had pulled in to fill up our car at Co-op.

What do you need today?” the guy asked me.

Fill reg­u­lar,” I responded, and he pro­ceeded to fill it up. He then made casual con­ver­sa­tion about the car, my iPod, and a few other items. By the time I drove away (how long does it take to pump 34 litres?) we, too, sounded like best friends.

Maybe you’ve had expe­ri­ences like this. Maybe you haven’t. Either way, it reminds me that we’re not iso­lated. We’re not lit­tle islands in a big ocean. We’re trav­el­ing down this jour­ney called life with many peo­ple near us. They may be head­ing in a dif­fer­ent direc­tion, but our roads can cross for a sec­ond. More than any­thing, I learned today how a sim­ple con­ver­sa­tion can bring a smile to my face, can make the day a lit­tle brighter.

Tak­ing Heart,

Paul Loewen

Truth and Lies…

InventionI watched “The Inven­tion of Lying” the other night. Despite the trite descrip­tions of “the man in the sky” and the obvi­ous Moses-mocking with pizza boxes in either hand, the movie prompted some inter­est­ing thoughts on the nar­ra­tives humans tell our­selves and the role that those nar­ra­tives play.

The main char­ac­ter, Mark, lives in an alter­nate real­ity where peo­ple can only speak the truth in full, com­plete with embar­rass­ing an d hurt­ful details. One day, he dis­cov­ers that he can speak some­thing that “is not” while at the bank. He starts out by using this new abil­ity for his ben­e­fit, but soon real­izes that some­times speak­ing what is not can bring hope, hap­pi­ness, and encour­age­ment to oth­ers, includ­ing telling his sui­ci­dal neigh­bour that “every­thing is going to be alright.”

In his book “Help­ing,” Edgar H. Schein describes the cul­tural norms and social lan­guage Helpingwe fol­low in help­ing one another, includ­ing sto­ries, roles, and nar­ra­tives as depicted in the film. In fact, he uses the term “the­atre” as a metaphor for the pat­terns of human inter­ac­tion that we depend upon to keep func­tion­ing socially. Mark’s use of these nar­ra­tives even in his world that usu­ally doesn’t fol­low them pushes him up in social sta­tus and admi­ra­tion of oth­ers. Aware­ness of these nar­ra­tives and their emo­tional impact can empower us to help and be helped and to avoid caus­ing hurt through our help­ing attempts.

I’m reminded of the pas­sage in Eph­esians describ­ing unity in the body of Christ, and the growth of fol­low­ers of Christ, “speak­ing the truth in love” along the way. This requires an inves­ti­ga­tion of the nar­ra­tives we use and to what extent they con­sti­tute “truth” while at the same time “in love.” Words of encour­age­ment, affir­ma­tion, and hope do not nec­es­sar­ily stem from what “is not” but from the truth framed in Christ-like love for others.

By the end of the film, Mark real­izes that lying holds no appeal when with some­one he loves. Instead, he learns to look for the affirm­ing truths in oth­ers and to speak those in place of truths that hurt. Not bad for a sim­ple comedy.

Re-Think

Jesus, the Son of God, to God, the Father in Heaven.

I always am grate­ful for you, because you have sus­tained me and car­ried me through so many tri­als and temp­ta­tions, through pain and dif­fi­cul­ties. You have given me power and per­se­ver­ance when it was nec­es­sary, and deliv­ered me from the grasp of death.

Because of this, it would be within my power to tell you what you should do, but instead I’m appeal­ing to you on the basis of love. I, as Jesus – your slain and res­ur­rected Son – appeal to you for my sons and daugh­ters, who have put their faith in me and in my power. For­merly they were sin­ners, now they have been redeemed by grace. I am send­ing them to come before you, so that you, too, can expe­ri­ence the joy I have expe­ri­enced. I am not forc­ing you, or com­mand­ing you, but giv­ing them to you with a smile on my face. While they used to be sep­a­rated from you, it was only for a time so that they could come to you in full­ness – not as a sin­ner but as a redeemed child. I love them with all my heart. So, as your Son and part­ner, wel­come them as you have always wel­comed me.

As they have dis­obeyed and done things wrong, I will step in and pay the penalty for them. Know­ing that you will wel­come them and go fur­ther by lav­ish­ing your love, joy, and bless­ings on them, I thank you.

This let­ter is based on the for­mat and out­line of Phile­mon. When I wrote it, it blew my mind to think about Jesus’ rela­tion­ship to us in this way. It made me seri­ously re-think things. I hope it does for you as well.

Tak­ing Heart,

Paul Loewen

Space Discoveries

As the new year begins, I find myself reflect­ing on the year that has passed and plan­ning for the year to come. Like many peo­ple, I’m sure. Set­ting goals and res­o­lu­tions, renew­ing com­mit­ments and promis­ing to change usu­ally come to mind.

Recently, though, I’ve been think­ing about my need for space. Prompted by a study of Barry Hart’s “Peace­build­ing Wheel” in rela­tion­ship to peace edu­ca­tion in a class last year, the con­cept of phys­i­cal, emo­tional, and rela­tional space con­tin­ues to come to my attention.

I know that I need phys­i­cal space. I real­ized the extent of my claus­tro­pho­bia in Korea on the packed 11pm under­ground trains where my breath­ing was inter­rupted by the push of peo­ple against me. What does it mean, though, to have emo­tional and rela­tional space? How does that relate to time?

In the last year, I expe­ri­enced the loss of a good friend. Through the grief process, I’m start­ing to under­stand the need for emo­tional space. While I rarely give myself the free­dom to just feel what I feel, I see the neg­a­tive impacts this lack of space has on me and the peo­ple close to me. When I do give myself space to grief, to lis­ten to my feel­ings and how my body is telling me it needs me to lis­ten, I come to a sense of release and renewal. If I have emo­tional space, the griev­ing process can con­tinue in healthy and life-giving ways.

The rela­tional con­cept of space cre­ates a place for friend­ships and con­nec­tions to be nur­tured. When I have my to-do list and I am so busy check­ing off on thing and the next, being pro­duc­tive, I more than likely will miss the nuances of my spouse’s facial expres­sions and for­get to ask how his day has gone. I tend to rush out of the stu­dent lounge after say­ing hi to a few from my class to get back to my office and “get things done” rather than sit together with hon­esty and pres­ence. Rela­tional space draws me into the lives of oth­ers, and makes their sto­ries my own. It cre­ates the oppor­tu­nity for authen­tic encounters.

So per­haps this year my res­o­lu­tion is not doing some­thing new, but let­ting go and cre­at­ing space. I seek to focus less on doing and more on being. In some ways, it’s eas­ier to resolve to add more com­mit­ments and promises to my sched­ule than to hon­estly reflect in space which may frighten and threaten me with its empti­ness. I find it more dif­fi­cult to stop, release, and be present. I sense, though, that Hart’s “Peace­build­ing Wheel” has some­thing that I’m miss­ing as one who seeks to cre­ate peace. This year, I’d like to dis­cover some space.

Top 5 Books of 2009

Every year, I write a blog entry on my favorite 5 books I read in that year. I read a lot, and the books usu­ally range from inspi­ra­tional to Chris­t­ian fic­tion to sci-fi and back again. So, with­out any fur­ther ado, here’s my top 5 picks of 2009:

Note­wor­thy men­tions:
– Crazy Talk (Rolf A. Jacob­son)
– Jour­ney (James A. Michener)

5. Mis­ter God, This Is Anna (Fynn) — This is an all-time clas­sic. A bit of a dys­func­tional fam­ily takes in a young girl. She sees the world through won­der­ful (and intu­itive) eyes. It takes tough con­cepts and boils them down into sim­ple thoughts. As much the­ol­ogy as it is story, and incred­i­bly fun at the same time.

4. Plague Maker (Tim Downs) — I bought this because I wanted to read a dif­fer­ent Tim Downs book, but that one was hard­cover and this one was $8. Nev­er­the­less, I’m con­vinced that there’s a new Chris­t­ian fic­tion writer I want to fol­low. It’s a fic­tion story largely cen­tred around fire­works and fleas — and while that may sound bor­ing, it’s not.

3. The Word on the Street (Rob Lacey) — “It’s not the Bible, but it might get you reach­ing for one,” says the back. No truer words have ever been said. Rob takes all 66 books of the Bible and boils them down into a 400-page novel-like book. The Psalms become songs (and raps), Leviti­cus is only one page long, and the entire thing helps you keep the story of the Bible, the char­ac­ters, and the mes­sage much clearer in your head. Engag­ing, humor­ous, and easy to read, I rec­om­mend this for any­one who has never read the Bible or has read it too much (it says that on the back too).

2. The Oath (Frank Peretti) — This man needs to write more fic­tion. Grip­ping, intense, and mean­ing­ful, The Oath is about a small town that’s haunted by a dragon. With an intruder search­ing for their secret, the town is com­ing under attack. It’ll keep you awake at night.

1. The Lan­guage of God (Fran­cis S. Collins) — The head of the Human Genome Project, argu­ing for God? Collins gives us his rea­sons for why being a sci­en­tist and a Chris­t­ian are not only com­pat­i­ble, but also mean­ing­ful. Cre­ation, evo­lu­tion — noth­ing is left untouched (includ­ing your view on God).

0. Heaven (Randy Alcorn) — It’s a bit too long of a book, but he sys­tem­at­i­cally builds a case for the New Earth as our eter­nal liv­ing place — an Earth not unlike ours in all the good stuff, and unlike ours in that all the bad is gone. Will we have fun? Will we know peo­ple? Will we have mem­o­ries? Any­thing good will con­tinue, he says. Instead of pic­tur­ing white fluffy clouds, it’ll make you want heaven again.

Yes, I know that was 6 books. But some­times I bend the 5 book rule.

Tak­ing Heart,

Paul Loewen

Remembering Events at Turner Oregon

At Turner, Ore­gon, in August 1969, in the midst of the divi­sive Viet­nam War, the Gen­eral Con­fer­ence of the (old) Men­non­ite Church adopted a res­o­lu­tion declar­ing that non-cooperation with the mil­i­tary draft was a valid and legit­i­mate wit­ness for Men­non­ite young men.  Although con­ser­v­a­tive crit­ics feared that non-cooperation with the draft would jeop­ar­dize the hard-won gov­ern­ment recog­ni­tion of alter­na­tive ser­vice for con­sci­en­tious objec­tors, prophetic dis­sent to the war pol­icy of the United States now gained offi­cial church accep­tance along­side the tra­di­tional non­re­sis­tant posi­tion. The group of resisters who brought that con­cern to the con­fer­ence was led by three Goshen Col­lege students—Doug Baker, J. Devon Leu and Jon Lind.  Ini­tially under sus­pi­cion as rebel­lious “hip­pies,” these three and their col­leagues from the impro­vised tent colony on the edge of the con­fer­ence grounds engaged in seri­ous con­ver­sa­tion with church lead­ers and even­tu­ally secured endorse­ment for their abso­lutist anti-draft com­mit­ment, some­what to their own sur­prise- J. R. Burkholder

When the August 1969 events in Turner, Ore­gon occurred I was liv­ing in Wash­ing­ton D. C.  It would still be three years until I met my Cana­dian wife, Dorothy Friesen so my con­nec­tions to Canada were lim­ited to nor­mal Amer­i­can blun­der­ing.  I had moved there from Viet Nam in Decem­ber 1967 after I resigned from my work with Inter­na­tional Vol­un­tary Ser­vices in order to speak out more boldly about the war.  In 1968 and 69 I trav­elled the coun­try speak­ing in uni­ver­si­ties, ser­vice clubs, churches, and com­mu­nity groups about Viet Nam.  By 1969 after orga­niz­ing and speak­ing for two years about Viet Nam where I had worked for about five years, I was dis­cour­aged because our efforts seemed to have brought only deri­sion from the White House and more troops for Viet Nam.  In my despair I enter­tained thoughts that maybe the world would always be this way and would go on in a con­stant state of war and killing.

The events of Turner, Ore­gon came to me by way of the Gospel Her­ald which I read usu­ally at some­one else’s house because I didn’t have money to sub­scribe.  The tent colony at the edge of the con­fer­ence grounds was the best news I received that sum­mer.  It told me that I was not alone.  It told me that there were peo­ple out there who would insist against the odds that a life lived by con­science was worth try­ing.  I rec­og­nized the rest­less­ness of the resisters.  It told me that we Men­non­ites still had some life in us and that we might not lose our way in the jun­gle of war mak­ing or the safe houses of with­drawal.  Most of all I felt the con­ti­nu­ity with the peo­ple at Goshen, in the church and par­tic­u­larly the resisters who made this event happen.

I remem­ber the late sum­mer of 1969 to be a par­tic­u­larly low point.  Troop lev­els had sur­passed 500,000. Bomb­ings were intense.   Vil­lages were wrecked.  Body counts recited daily in Saigon brief­ings and repeated on the evening news were too much to watch.  I learned not to believe the num­bers.  I had friends who had been killed there.  More would die.  Where was the hope? In those days Canada was the prin­ci­pal refuge for Amer­i­cans seek­ing a safe place from the war front.  Many of us kept lists of Cana­dian tele­phone num­bers that peo­ple flee­ing mil­i­tary con­scrip­tion might use in case of urgent need.

When I tried to sleep at night a recur­ring dream would jolt me from my sleep.  Pres­i­dent John­son (by then Nixon) and Ho Chi Minh were in Viet Nam jun­gle.  They couldn’t find each other.  There were bombs and smoke, burn­ing embers and fallen trees.  Air planes dropped bombs and flares shot from how­itzers lit the night sky.  Noth­ing worked the way it was sup­posed to work and my job was to get Lyn­don John­son and Ho Chi Minh together.  I tried push­ing, cajol­ing and lead­ing and noth­ing worked.  Just as I would get the two lead­ers into a gen­eral area where they might meet, the oppor­tu­nity would slip away because of bombs or groups of mean­der­ing sol­diers.  On many nights the dream ended my sleep.  I was exhausted from the jun­gle.  The news from Turner gave me one night of decent sleep.

Remem­ber­ing events at Turner is impor­tant because we can still learn from them.

1.  The tent mak­ers who went to Turner may have had mixed feel­ings about their actions and may never have expected suc­cess.  You see most of us are a lit­tle ambiva­lent about suc­cess in our truth exper­i­ments.  Some of us aren’t sure we deserve suc­cess.  Suc­cess would mean we need to take respon­si­bil­ity.  No good hippy wants to take very much responsibility.

It takes the great gift of cen­tered con­vic­tion to enter into a con­tro­ver­sial, risky, dan­ger­ous oper­a­tion that might fail or suc­ceed.  We eas­ily for­get that there is no fail­ure in truth work.  The result that we seek can not be described with words like suc­cess or fail­ure.  The result we seek is a reli­able rep­re­sen­ta­tion of God’s  truth for the time.  But, being human it also feels good to be suc­cess­ful and get what we want.  Good events usu­ally have sur­prises, and might even be suc­cess­ful.  Turner was one of those times.

The sym­bol of hippy like char­ac­ters in a tent near the Men­non­ite con­ven­tion site must have been dra­matic for the hun­dreds and thou­sands of par­tic­i­pants who had once attended their own tent meet­ings.  Some may have seen it as a call to revival.  A few may have seen it as quaint or down­right stu­pid, off putting and embar­rass­ing.  The first objec­tive of a good action is to get atten­tion.  The longer term intent of the sym­bol is to draw atten­tion to a larger truth.  The tent was bril­liant, timely and appro­pri­ate for the crowd.   There may still be some tent work to be done.

2.  The stu­dents were the pri­mary actors but they were backed by Goshen pro­fes­sors and maybe even the col­lege admin­is­tra­tion.  They also had allies spread through­out the church and they prob­a­bly knew it.  In addi­tion, the tent lead­er­ship was aware that the church as a body was the car­rier of a spe­cial tra­di­tion of peace.  The church did not yet use the term peace­mak­ing although it was part of its most sacred scrip­ture.  The church lead­ers knew that this could not be treated lightly and per­haps at least a few of them were aware that the expres­sion of rejec­tion of mil­i­tary ser­vice through the cen­turies had taken a vari­ety of forms.  The peace posi­tion itself was not up for ques­tion­ing.  If there was a ques­tion it related to the cur­rent appli­ca­tion of the prin­ci­ple.  Finally the request for sup­port for non reg­is­tra­tion was not directly or inher­ently polit­i­cal although it inferred changes in long term rela­tion­ships with the national polit­i­cal order.  There was room for the gath­ered church to nego­ti­ate with the “ten­ters”. Church lead­ers’ grasp of hard earned non­re­sis­tant priv­i­leges nego­ti­ated and evolved in Wash­ing­ton over the pre­vi­ous cen­turies gave courage for the chang­ing times.

3.  Turner was a key time when the gath­ered church spoke to itself and shifted its bound­aries to accom­mo­date and expand its wit­ness within itself and the world.  The old I W, CO sys­tems needed renewal.   By 1969 there were more sol­diers who were anti war, and anti killing at least in Viet Nam, anti draft or young men and women who were just anti war than there were Chris­t­ian paci­fists with mem­ber­ship in any of the peace ori­ented church. A sit­u­a­tion like this had never existed before.  Selec­tive paci­fist think­ing, Chris­t­ian paci­fism and anti war think­ing inter­min­gled inside and out­side the church. A church that had spent 450 years try­ing to find a safe place to prac­tice a non­re­sis­tant ethic of enemy lov­ing had sud­denly been leap frogged to the front of a social move­ment.  Although the draft was still on, the abil­ity of the US gov­ern­ment to apply it was slip­ping away in the face of the explo­sion of con­science among draftees.  Who would pro­vide space for resisters?  Must they all flee to Canada?  Would the church be at that table or lead?  And what would its pres­ence look like?

By sig­nalling an open­ness to non reg­is­trants the church rec­og­nized the dawn of a new era.  Men­non­ite con­gre­ga­tions through­out the land were often con­tacted by sol­diers, and young peo­ple fac­ing the draft, GIs and all kinds of peo­ple seek­ing escape from war and killing.  Many con­gre­ga­tions were not ready for this although there were fel­low­ships where the light shone.  As I trav­elled the coun­try in my peace work I often met indi­vid­u­als who had sought out Men­non­ite churches for per­sonal sup­port and com­mu­nity.  They were not always wel­comed.  Church mem­bers and even pas­tors were ambiva­lent about peo­ple with long hair who had con­nec­tions in the peace move­ment or the mil­i­tary and believed that good peace peo­ple did not break the law .  The road to adjust­ment of the gospel wit­ness in the new order was just beginning.

Look­ing back we can see that Turner was one of sev­eral hints that the decades that fol­lowed could birth a fam­ily of peace endeav­ours, con­flict res­o­lu­tion, non­vi­o­lent peace­mak­ing, medi­a­tion, restora­tive jus­tice, peace edu­ca­tion and so many local ini­tia­tives. Their arrival awaited  vision, space, finan­cial sup­port, train­ing and stead­fast­ness.  The non reg­is­trants and their sup­port­ers on the road to Turner helped to pre­pare the way.

Gene Stoltz­fus

Flipping the switch

The world in which I grew up was a lit­tle bit Men­non­ite, a lit­tle bit evan­gel­i­cal and a lit­tle bit con­ser­v­a­tive.  As a child it seemed clear to me that the youth and young adults of our com­mu­nity who ques­tioned or dis­re­garded var­i­ous teach­ings were sim­ply rebel­lious by nature and had likely been absorbed in the think­ing of the world.  As a teenager though, some of this started to change.  I started to real­ize a few things; one, that I should at least lis­ten to what these rebels were try­ing to say, and two, in turned out that the church wasn’t pre­pared to lis­ten to me as much as maybe I’d hoped they would.

So on a num­ber of issues, I started doing a fair bit of research.  I thought that if the truth was clear, I should be able to find it on my own.  I approached the var­i­ous sub­jects cau­tiously, per­haps more slowly than my more liberal/progressive friends did but more reck­lessly than my par­ents or child­hood church com­mu­nity might think was prudent.

There was one par­tic­u­lar issue that was espe­cially hard to deal with and it con­tin­ues to have a divi­sive impact on mine and a num­ber of other sim­i­lar reli­gious com­mu­ni­ties.  I’m sure it’s a fairly sim­ple issue for a num­ber of out­siders, but his­tory has shown that this issue hasn’t always been eas­ily resolved every­where else either.

I didn’t really know any­one who lived out this kind of lifestyle, so it was a bit of a the­o­ret­i­cal issue, but a lot of my peers had for­mu­lated opin­ions on whether or not it would be right for some­one to indulge in this kind of lifestyle if they were so inclined.  Those on the “pro” side of the argu­ment said that undoubt­edly peo­ple had been made this way and it was sim­ply a mat­ter of them express­ing them­selves.    Those on the other side insisted that good Chris­tians shouldn’t just give in to their ani­mal instincts and that this kind of activ­ity was almost cer­tainly what the Bible talked about when it men­tions “sex­ual immoral­ity”.  I’ve prob­a­bly spent most of my life on the “anti” side of the argu­ment, but I con­tin­ued con­tem­plat­ing the rela­tional and recre­ational impli­ca­tions of the issue on var­i­ous people’s lives.

Then there came a point where I started to won­der about the long term real­ity of hold­ing my point of view.  Would I ever find a wife that would share this point of view?  Did I have any hope of pass­ing this opin­ion on to my chil­dren?  It was becom­ing clear that the world around me had changed, and it would be much more dif­fi­cult for me to see things this than it was for my parents.

Then, even­tu­ally I decided to make the switch.  Per­haps I had been wrong, and I was ready to see things com­pletely from the other side.  I decided that maybe danc­ing wasn’t so bad after all.

But when I changed my mind, I noticed a few things.  On the pos­i­tive side, it quickly became clear that it did come very nat­u­rally to some peo­ple and that it didn’t nec­es­sar­ily lead to greater sins.  How­ever, there were a few dis­turb­ing rev­e­la­tions as well.  I sud­denly real­ized when I got out onto the dance floor that a the­o­log­i­cal shift wasn’t enough.  The intel­lec­tual change I had under­gone had in no way pre­pared me for the phys­i­cal and social envi­ron­ments I would soon be exposed to.

At first I thought that any dis­com­fort I was feel­ing was from some lin­ger­ing guilt, as though my early edu­ca­tors were still con­trol­ling me. Then I won­dered if I just felt self-conscious, wor­ry­ing that these peo­ple were much more judg­men­tal than I was lead to believe. Either way, I soon under­stood that it was going to take a long time for my body to catch up with my mind.  No mat­ter how sound or con­vinc­ing the logic behind my deci­sion had been, it wouldn’t mat­ter until I actu­ally put in the work of fig­ur­ing out how to dance.  I’m still strug­gling through it, and that is obvi­ous every time I step out onto the dance floor, but it’s a process, and I under­stand it will take a long time.

Resol(ve)ution

I con­sid­ered get­ting a month’s mem­ber­ship to YMCA for Jan­u­ary. My hope was to spend some time on the tread­mills, track, and maybe even in the pool (though my swim­ming isn’t exactly stream­lined). Once Feb­ru­ary comes around I’m usu­ally able to brave the cold weather and go run­ning out­side once again. But Jan­u­ary is just too cold.

I real­ized, how­ever, that if I were to get a mem­ber­ship for Jan­u­ary only, I would:

  1. Look like all the other gung-ho Jan­u­ary exercisers
  2. Find myself in a very busy gym
  3. Look like all the other un-committed Feb­ru­ary quitters

And so, I’ve opted out of gym mem­ber­ship, and will instead work out at home. I’ve never actu­ally made a New Year’s Res­o­lu­tion. For sev­eral reasons:

  1. It seems like it’s designed for gyms to make money
  2. Most peo­ple quit them before Jan­u­ary is over
  3. If I don’t have the willpower to change every day of the year, Jan­u­ary 1st will be no different

Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m all for peo­ple doing their best to improve them­selves in what­ever aspect of their life they need improv­ing. I attempt to do that reg­u­larly. I’m nowhere near the human I was designed to be, and resolv­ing to be more Christ-like is a chal­lenge each day.

New Year’s Res­o­lu­tions stand out, to me, as peo­ple want­ing to change. One thing that’s remark­able about being a Chris­t­ian is that we are given this oppor­tu­nity every moment of every day. The beauty of being a Chris­t­ian is that

  1. It’s not based solely on our willpower
  2. We live in a com­mu­nity that is striv­ing to do the same as us
  3. We have account­abil­ity, help, and camaraderie

So here’s my chal­lenge: don’t make a half-hearted attempt at a New Year’s Res­o­lu­tion. Chal­lenge your­self to be as Christ-like as you can be, day in and day out. Sur­round your­self with peo­ple with like-minded goals. Grow in your faith by learn­ing from God him­self. Don’t make res­o­lu­tions; instead, resolve to be like Christ.

Tak­ing Heart,

Paul Loewen

PS. Maybe I should resolve to use less bul­leted lists!