Monthly Archive for April, 2009

A Korean Bible Study in Harrisonburg

We walked in late, but there were only two oth­ers and Pas­tor James sit­ting at the table so far. He wel­comed us with great enthu­si­asm, intro­duc­ing us as con­nec­tions through the Korea Anabap­tist Cen­ter in Seoul. With a strange sense of sur­re­al­ism, I lis­tened to his tran­si­tion back to the les­son at hand, recall­ing hours spent in class­rooms of var­i­ous churches around Seoul, at first frus­trated with new teach­ing styles and too many unknown vocab­u­lary, and then strangely com­forted by famil­iar pat­terns and answers I knew.

As more mem­bers came into the tiny class­room on the EMU cam­pus, we inter­rupted the les­son again to intro­duce, the Pas­tor empha­siz­ing my Korean abil­ity as a way to put every­one at ease… you don’t have to worry about Eng­lish here.

The les­son came to an end, with the eight mem­bers eager to move to the sec­ond stage — a Korean meal. Step­ping out into the evening sun, I felt shocked to find myself back in Har­rison­burg, not Seoul, and rev­eled in the sense of delight and antic­i­pa­tion of famil­iar food and peo­ple who understand.

Over a deli­cious meal of rice, kim­chi, and kim­chi soup, we learned tips for life in Vir­ginia as a Korean fam­ily. Where to buy the right ingre­di­ents, how to con­nect to peo­ple, who is who, and who is where. Pas­tor James talked about his con­gre­ga­tion, the Stephens City Korean Men­non­ite Church, and his many involve­ments in min­istries for Korean stu­dents in the area. From stu­dents shar­ing in the meal, he seems a Pas­tor and father fig­ure to many, and has already far over­paid the grace he had received dur­ing his days as a student.

We left with bowls of kim­chi, a pack­age of ramyeon, and hearts full of grat­i­tude for the mys­te­ri­ous and grace-filled ways of God’s work in community.

Home and Exile in Wendell Berry’s Hannah Coulter

The world is an inter­tex­ual place. It is more than that, but it is that. Texts run par­al­lel and inter­sect con­stantly. Some­times the texts are par­al­lel but run too far at a dis­tance and so we can­not see another’s com­mon pur­pose and direc­tion. Some­times the inter­sec­tion is a vio­lent and grand col­li­sion but it hap­pened in the past or too far in future and so we can­not learn from its warn­ing and wis­dom. But if you are lucky and atten­tive you can rel­ish in the uncon­ducted orches­tra of meanings.

Read­ing Han­nah Coul­ter by Wen­dell Berry after House­keep­ing and along­side Alain Epp Weaver’s States of Exile has been mean­ing­ful if try­ing expe­ri­ence. House­keep­ing was a story of place but more of absence and tran­siency. The nar­ra­tor is search­ing or reflect­ing on an absence of iden­tity in her youth. Fig­ures come and go mov­ing through life leav­ing lit­tle per­ma­nence. She only takes on what is present to her at a given time. The one house stands through­out the story by the end even that house is no more. The novel ends in dis­so­lu­tion. She is present and alive but not grounded. Han­nah Coul­ter is a story of placed­ness. Han­nah grew up not far from the farm where she spent over 60 years of her life. Through her life Han­nah is taught, formed, filled with knowl­edge, sense and skill. She is reflect­ing now on full life. This is not an ide­al­ized life or an easy life it is indeed a hard life hav­ing out­lived two hus­bands and watched her chil­dren move away (some fur­ther than oth­ers) from the life that she so dearly loves. Her life as we learn remains in many ways bounded to the earth around and under­neath her.

Add to this Epp Weaver’s States of Exile which is a the­o­log­i­cal reflec­tion on exile as an eth­i­cal and crit­i­cal posi­tion and as the lived real­ity of mod­ern day Pales­tini­ans. Epp Weaver moves us towards con­sid­er­ing a life that must always be con­sid­ered exilic so long as injus­tice remains in the land. An exilic pos­ture is liv­ing out­side those pow­ers that ground and sta­bi­lize life at the cost of oth­ers. As I read through Han­nah Coul­ter I began to won­der if Berry had allowed him­self to move too far towards a type of sen­ti­men­tal­ity that con­sciously or uncon­sciously grounded his past in other unjust pow­ers such as patri­archy, US impe­ri­al­ism, or ‘hard work’. I am still a lit­tle uneasy with Berry’s work though as a piece of fic­tion it is pow­er­ful reflec­tion of mem­ory and love.

Per­haps the under­ly­ing theme of ‘exile’ that runs through this novel is Hannah’s under­stand­ing of expec­ta­tion. She and her hus­band Nathan at times fall into the temp­ta­tion of expect­ing a par­tic­u­lar future. Han­nah is wise to dis­tin­guish hope from expec­ta­tions and to acknowl­edge that hope, if indeed it is hope, is always a good thing, nour­ish­ing and com­fort­ing. Expec­ta­tion attempts to con­tain truth and real­ity not allow­ing it to breathe and to bless as it chooses. Han­nah is always tempted with expec­ta­tion and is aware of its pres­ence as when her grand­child appears to take to farm­ing when none of her chil­dren had. In the end though, even as this comes at the end of a life, Han­nah knows that no mat­ter how much her life is grounded in place and soil she must stand on it and work it with open hands. “I want to leave here open­handed, with only the ancient bless­ing, “Good-bye. My love to you all.”

There is no rea­son to leave the place where we are stand­ing. There is no rea­son to stay. There is only the call to love and faith­ful­ness. This is exile. This is home.

Living in God’s nation

This first Sun­day morn­ing at church in Har­rison­burg, Vir­ginia, I lis­tened to words from Myron Augs­berger. He talked about “This Same Jesus” who was cru­ci­fied, res­ur­rected, and spent forty days with the dis­ci­ples and fol­low­ers telling them about the king­dom of God.

Myron empha­sized the con­sis­tency of Jesus’ min­istry through­out the var­i­ous stages of life, death , and res­ur­rec­tion… bring­ing good news to the poor, free­dom to the oppressed, free­dom to the cap­tive, sight to the blind, and pro­claim­ing the year of the Lord. This con­sis­tency gives us a clear vision of what it’s like to live in the nation of God. God’s coun­try. Myron called us to wit­ness to this king­dom in our every­day lives.

More than the Eng­lish term, “king­dom,” I like the Korean trans­la­tion — God’s coun­try. God’s nation. Not the nation of Canada or Korea or U.S.A, but the nation of God. This is our first alle­giance and the first iden­ti­fi­ca­tion. It means that we all belong to the same body of Jesus, which should come first in our intro­duc­tions. I am not first a Cana­dian or a Men­non­ite, but a sis­ter in Christ’s church seek­ing to show every­one around me through my life the restor­ing, for­giv­ing, abun­dant love of God.

If I really expe­ri­ence this love in my life, I can­not help but extend this to oth­ers and look for ways to sur­prise with grace and for­give­ness, whether in a space of com­fort and secu­rity in my life in Korea, or a place of uncer­tainty and unsure new begin­nings here in Har­rison­burg. Reflect­ing on all this, I ask myself, how do I live my life in God’s nation today?

Prayer, love, and disorder

I recently had a con­ver­sa­tion with a Jor­dan­ian woman around my age who attends the same church I do in Amman.  We were dis­cussing the nature of Chris­tian­ity and what it is char­ac­ter­ized by.  One thing she men­tioned, and I agree, is that many churches can be more clearly defined by their rules on what or what not to do then by their love or grace. She was speak­ing par­tic­u­larly about work with the youth and how churches have rules for every­thing that youth should or should not do as a Chris­t­ian.  Rules def­i­nitely serve their pur­pose in soci­ety but I find it inter­est­ing that no mat­ter where I go, reli­gions seem to be most defined by their rules on what you can­not or should not do.  Reli­gions are also defined by how they are not like the “oth­ers”. 

It would be won­der­ful if we as Chris­tians could embrace what we are and what we stand for in love and faith in a way that nat­u­rally draws oth­ers to us.  I’m sure there are many Chris­t­ian com­mu­ni­ties that are already doing this.  I just fin­ished read­ing “Becom­ing the Answer to our Prayers” by Shane Clai­borne and Jonathan Wilson-Hartgrove.  The authors are clear that we are never the answer to our prayers with­out God but rather that we are given the respon­si­bil­ity to pray and act by God. God chooses to need us and chooses to change the world with us, the church – Christ’s body. The story of faith is a story of God work­ing through his peo­ple in com­mu­nity in their weak­ness and in their strength.  God works through frailty. I have to con­stantly remind myself of this when I bemoan my own short­com­ings and won­der how in the world God can use me out here.

Shane says, “Chris­tians blaze through this dark world and set it on fire with their love.  It is con­ta­gious and spreads like wild­fire.  We are peo­ple who shine, who burn up the dark­ness of this old world with the Light that dwells within us. ..We are not just called to be can­dles. Can­dles make for nice Christ­mas ser­vices and for a nice peace vigil….we are called to be fire.  As we grow in spir­i­tual wis­dom, learn­ing the dynam­ics of prayer, we are con­sumed more and more by the One who burns with love for the whole cre­ation. We are to be fire, to weave our lives together so the Spirit’s inferno of love spreads across the earth.  Ulti­mately, that’s what it means to become the answer to our prayers.”

So here in a part of the world where Chris­tians are the minor­ity, it might be eas­ier to become com­mu­ni­ties on the defen­sive, com­mu­ni­ties who are defined more by what or who we are not, than by what we are. Or maybe this is just as true of com­mu­ni­ties of Chris­tians in parts of the world where Chris­tians are in the major­ity and we become com­fort­able in our posi­tions of power and influ­ence.  The basic call to love each other and to offer out that grace that God first gave us seems the most dif­fi­cult. In its sim­plic­ity it still seems end­lessly com­pli­cated to work against the nat­ural incli­na­tion toward com­fort and secu­rity that we dis­till into sim­ple rules on order. It seems far more chaotic and uncom­fort­able to extend a love and grace that is not usu­ally ordered, may not be pretty, and might invite peo­ple we would rather exclude.  But those are in fact things that char­ac­ter­ized Jesus’ own ministry. 

On Beauty and Housekeeping

I can say that Mar­i­lynne Robinson’s House­keep­ing is the most beau­ti­ful book I have read in some time. The pace is slow and as one reviewer com­mented this is also how the book should be read. This is a story of women and of the pres­ence of an absent man. The book begins with a grand­fa­ther, Edmund, who is never per­son­ally known by the nar­ra­tor, Ruth, a woman look­ing back on her child­hood. Edmund is known as a sim­ple man who longed to see the peaks of moun­tains and so he set out on the rail­road one day ask­ing to be directed towards the moun­tains. Per­haps as an act of cru­elty he was given a ticket and dropped off at the less the majes­tic hills of Fin­ger­bone Idaho. The train, his long­ing for beauty or wild­ness or both even­tu­ally becomes his grave. Edmund takes a job with the rail­road, gets mar­ried to a woman names Sylvia and has three daugh­ters Helen, Molly and Sylvia. One day as the train was pass­ing on the bridge over the town’s lake there was an acci­den­tal derail­ment and the train nosed into the lake sub­merg­ing itself com­pletely in a dark moon­less night. Through the night and at dawn and in the days to come there were left no traces of the train itself, it was not deter­mined where it finally came to rest. The next the day the lake froze over for the winter.

The lake is depicted as almost bot­tom­less cer­tainly deep and dark offer­ing no order to those who enter it. The book hardly gets brighter as the wid­owed woman Sylvia raises her chil­dren alone. The story moves to the daugh­ter Helen who has two girls of her own Ruth, the nar­ra­tor, and Lucille. Helen returns to her home after a long absence drops her two girls off at her mother’s place and then dri­ves a bor­rowed car off a cliff into the lake that held her father. Any hope, any pos­si­bil­ity of free­dom seems cower in the pres­ence of this lake.

So why would I say that this book is beau­ti­ful? Was there a redeem­ing end to the story? Not really. There remains through­out this story a deep and deep­en­ing sense of loss and con­fu­sion. And yet the nar­ra­tor assumes that the world is always more than it seems. There is always an abun­dance of mean­ing even if that mean­ing is dark and dis­as­trous. Win­dows, water and light are god-like in their abil­ity to tell you about life. So is this beauty? Is it pos­si­ble to redeem a sit­u­a­tion purely because it acknowl­edges the tran­scen­dence of the world, the great and ter­ri­ble pos­si­bil­i­ties of mean­ing? Or does this assume to much of beauty? Can beauty redeem? I don’t think so.

For all its great beauty House­keep­ing redeems no one and noth­ing. At one point I believed that beauty could save. If only we rec­og­nized the beauty of this world then we would live in the light of its sal­va­tion. But beauty is only ever beauty, that is all though it is not sim­ply super­fi­cial and façade. Beauty is in fact depth but it is only spa­tial not mean­ing­ful in itself. Beauty only shows where it is pos­si­ble to travel. Beauty can show us the length and bread of our real­ity and the pos­si­bil­ity of mean­ing. But being moved by a story or a song is only to be moved and one place is no bet­ter than another.

I was moved by House­keep­ing but I was not redeemed and I think that is how Mar­i­lynne Robin­son would have wanted it.

An Easter Sermon

Imme­di­ately fol­low­ing our beau­ti­ful wed­ding day with fam­ily and friends, a fun hon­ey­moon trip around Korea, expe­ri­enc­ing four sea­sons in one week, and return­ing to pack­ing and prepa­ra­tion for study in the U.S, came Easter weekend.

In the midst of all the whirl­wind of tran­si­tion and plan­ning, vis­it­ing and say­ing good­bye, I reflect on the mean­ing of Easter. Pas­tor Oh at Yeoul Church this morn­ing summed up the mes­sage of Easter in his ser­mon title: Res­ur­rec­tion and the Good News of Peace. We live in the hope of the res­ur­rec­tion and in the real­ity of walls bro­ken down between peo­ple of great dif­fer­ence, and even in the midst of con­flict. We can live this rad­i­cal life of one-ness in a com­mu­nity of such diver­sity because of Christ’s uni­fy­ing gift of life through the Holy Spirit.

I’m excited, chal­lenged and reas­sured by this mes­sage. I’m reminded of my iden­tity and why I cel­e­brate Easter. I remem­ber how I am empow­ered by the Spirit to live and build peace around me in what­ever stage of life I may be in, and wher­ever I might go. This Spirit will join me together with those to whom I say farewell and will bind me together in new rela­tion­ships to fam­ily and friends in unex­pected and mag­nif­i­cent ways.

Pigeon-fancying and prayer

Right around sun­set here in Amman, flocks of pigeons start cir­cling above the build­ings on the hill oppo­site the hill that I live on. I love watch­ing the set­ting sun change the color of the build­ings from their usual drab beige to dif­fer­ent shades of orange as the flocks of white specks wheel around above. I’ve often won­dered why the pigeons always start cir­cling about the same time and in the same places.  Then recently I read about the sport of pigeon-fancying.  Appar­ently at sun­set in towns in Jor­dan and in Amman, peo­ple come out onto their rooftops and let open their pigeon coops.  Some­times they cir­cle a lure around so that the flock will keep cir­cling. This is some­times seen as a shady sport because one of the objec­tives is to steal bird from other flocks by using one’s own flock to entice one or two away from another flock. 

I had no idea that the birds were actu­ally part of a human-controlled sport.  I think I pre­ferred not know­ing and instead think­ing that flocks of pigeons just chose to fly in tight lit­tle groups cir­cling above the build­ing s of Amman at sun­set, how roman­tic.  Before we changed the clock for­ward an hour for  time sav­ings, the Mus­lim call to prayer used to coin­cide with sun­set and the cir­cling pigeons. It was almost like the birds were danc­ing to the sound from the mosques.  I hear the call to prayer five times a day in stereo from across the city and any nov­elty attached to the sound has worn thin for me. But what if I imag­ine the prayers of the church here danc­ing to meet God like the pigeons that cir­cle above the buildings?

There is some­thing mag­i­cal about sun­rise and sun­set and I think it is the nat­ural beauty of the event — one of God’s meth­ods of gen­eral rev­e­la­tion.  It is a beauty avail­able for all and to remind all of the Cre­ator who is to be glo­ri­fied and who offers rec­on­cil­i­a­tion with humankind through the Son.  I hope that sun­set con­tin­ues to remind me of the silent prayers of the Chris­t­ian church that dance their way to God, glo­ri­fy­ing the One who cre­ated sun­set, pigeons, and peo­ple of all religions. 

A Reflection on Rage and Praise

Why do the nations rage?

Likely a rhetor­i­cal ques­tion for the psalmist but I want to let that ques­tion stand for a moment. I can clearly remem­ber a time when I was at my grandma’s apart­ment prob­a­bly in junior high or younger. A few of my rel­a­tives were gath­ered watch­ing TV. As we flipped through chan­nels we came across Much Music or MTV and there was a music video for some metal band like Slayer. It was heavy, hard music and the video was of a large group of peo­ple in a cage and they were rag­ing within it; shak­ing, rock­ing the cage as the music played. I can remem­ber my uncle say­ing some­thing like, “See the rebel­lion of this gen­er­a­tion.” What he did not do was ask why were they rag­ing, against what or who were they rag­ing? This is not a ques­tion to jus­tify actions because there is lit­tle we can do well when gripped by anger but the ques­tion should give us pause and help us to think of the inter­nal and exter­nal envi­ron­ment that nur­tures anger.

John Steinbeck’s novel The Grapes of Wrath can be read at least in part as a med­i­ta­tion on the ori­gins and com­plex­i­ties of anger. The story begins in Okla­homa at the start of the Great Depres­sion. The Joad fam­ily attempts to hold on to their farm but as con­di­tions worsen they become allured to the promise of land and work in Cal­i­for­nia. As they travel across the Amer­i­can south­west towards Cal­i­for­nia they begin to see how deep and wide­spread the hard­ships are for other Amer­i­cans. Then as they draw closer to the promised land of Cal­i­for­nia some of the fam­ily mem­bers begin to won­der whether there will be enough work for every­one. And sure enough arriv­ing in Cal­i­for­nia they are greeted by mul­ti­tudes, waves of other fam­i­lies who were also hop­ing for work and a new life. Stein­beck presents the mount­ing des­per­a­tion of those who are scram­bling for any type of work they can find. He describes the wealthy farms and busi­nesses prof­it­ing off of these peo­ple. He paints a pic­ture of the hos­til­ity that the locals showed towards these for­eign­ers who threaten to take their jobs. These migrant peo­ple were pressed on all sides. The locals fought the migrants out of fear and anger for los­ing what lit­tle they had. The migrants fought to under bid each other to secure what lit­tle work there was. Stein­beck writes,

“The roads were crowded with men rav­en­ous for work, mur­der­ous for work. And the com­pa­nies, the banks worked at their own doom and they did not know it. The fields were fruit­ful, and starv­ing men moved on the roads.… The great com­pa­nies did not know that the line between hunger and anger is a thin line. And money that might have gone to wages went for gas, for guns, for agents and spies, for black­lists, for drilling. On the high­ways the peo­ple moved like ants and searched for work, for food. And the anger began to ferment.”

But anger is not the final word in Steinbeck’s vision. Like the in the psalms rage is not given infi­nite space to con­sume and destroy. Rage instead is released into the con­fines of liturgy. And within this space it is trans­formed. This is the sort of trans­for­ma­tion that Tom Joad expe­ri­ences in The Grapes of Wrath. The family’s and indeed the country’s sit­u­a­tion spi­rals down­ward through­out the novel. Ten­sions and anger increase as work and pay decrease. The Joad family’s friend Casy, an old preacher, who trav­elled with them started to orga­nize some work­ers to try and strike so that they can hold out for a live­able wage. Farm own­ers caught wind of this and begin to hunt those orga­niz­ing strikes. One night Tom finds Casy who is try­ing lead a group of migrant work­ers in a strike.

A group of men come and sur­round them and even­tu­ally kill Casy. Tom losses con­trol of him­self becomes enraged and kills one of those men in return. The pure real­ity of his anger that cul­mi­nated in that moment lashed out in death against that man. In fear of the trou­ble that he would bring to his fam­ily Tom goes into hid­ing. His fam­ily is still able to bring him food but he no longer inter­acts with the out­side world, the world struc­tured in anger and vio­lence. Tom’s hid­ing spot acts like a monk’s cell as he is forced into a type of reflec­tive patience think­ing about what is going on around him. As he says later to his mother, “you get thinkin’ a lot when you ain’t movin’ aourn.”

Towards the end of the book Tom’s mother brings him some food and she is invited into his small den. Tom begins to artic­u­late to her a vision of how the peo­ple could restore their qual­ity of life and work together again. Tom’s mother warns him that this will be dan­ger­ous and he might end up like Casy did. Tom does not claim to know all the details of what should unfold but knows that his life needs to be offered in the ser­vice of another order. The words and actions of the unortho­dox preacher Casy and the cir­cum­stances of the world around him began to form a type of litany in the den where he stayed.

He knew that his life was now in the order of the peo­ple not of power. His anger was trans­formed into liturgy, a higher order­ing. In the cli­max of the con­ver­sa­tion Tom’s mother is con­cerned about him going off on his own. She asks how she will know whether he is okay or not, alive or dead. Tom laughs uneasily and says,

“Well, maybe its like Casy says, a fella ain’t got a soul of his own, but on’y a piece of a big on – an’ then – ” Then what, Tom’s mother asks. “Then it don’ mat­ter. Then I’ll be aroun’ in the dark. I’ll be ever’where – wher­ever you look. Wher­ever they’s a fight so hun­gry peo­ple can eat, I’ll be there. Wher­ever they’s a cop beatin’ up a guy, I’ll be there. If Casy knowed, why, I’ll be the way guys yell when they’re mad an – I’ll be the way kids laugh when they’re hun­gry an’ they know supper’s ready. An’ when our folks eat the stuff they raise an’ live in the houses they build – why, I’ll be there.”

Tom’s anger was trans­formed so that his life now became a part of a new order. This is the vision of Psalm 2. There is an anointed one of God, a child of God, already enthroned in this new world. This King­dom is achieved not through the imma­ture or vio­lent out­burst of anger but through enter­ing into com­mu­nion with God and neighbour.

So why do the nations rage? We do we rage? Our anger can lead us to con­trol and vio­lence. Instead, in our anger we should not sin. Like Tom may we find our­selves drawn or even forced out­side the world that fuels our anger so that in patience God would trans­form us to be love in the midst of those things we once hated. That we might be peace in the midst of all that rages. That the anointed one of God would be rule in our hearts and to the end of the earth.

The problem with trying to save the world

Only one prob­lem? Well, it’s not even nine o’clock in the morn­ing. I could only think of one. This morn­ing I was read­ing one of my favourite blogs, peacebang.com, writ­ten by a Uni­tar­ian Uni­ver­sal­ist min­is­ter in Mass­a­chu­setts. She men­tioned she was going to see Al Gore, and so there was a dis­cus­sion on her blog about the envi­ron­ment. Nat­u­rally, one of the com­ments that came up was about try­ing to eat local, organic, etc.

This is what I have a prob­lem with. It’s not that I have any­thing against Ontario pro­duce (in fact, I think it’s deli­cious) or against organic pro­duce (also, again, deli­cious) but that I think it’s hard to actu­ally have a ‘100 mile diet’. For one thing, I’m a grad stu­dent. Organic pro­duce is really pricey. For another, I live in Toronto. In the win­ter, local fruit and veg­eta­bles are pretty much either non-existent or not-so-delicious look­ing. A third prob­lem is that I really like eat­ing rice. I would say that it helps me stand in sol­i­dar­ity with the world’s poor, but that might be stretch­ing things a little.

The real rea­son I have a prob­lem with this is that it doesn’t address real root prob­lems related to agri­cul­ture. Like, flood­ing for­eign mar­kets with over-subsidized North Amer­i­can food that we don’t really want/isn’t that healthy/destroys local agri­cul­ture. White rice comes imme­di­ately to mind. Address­ing these prob­lems would require sys­temic change that no one is really pre­pared for. It’s much eas­ier to talk about indi­vid­ual change, which, while impor­tant, is not really enough.